today finally post. sorry reader i cahngeed my links LOL anyway, quite a pleasant day though kinda upset cos, airen is having her 1st month but not with me, with durian her rl stead, my rl buddy. how i wish it was me but it nvr gonna happen, she love him alot. anyway, i dunnoe when i develop this feeling for u but i just wanna let u know how much i wished for u. but i know u aint ready yet. so i will wait while by ur side. yujing i just wanna tell u i love u ! <3 kinda sad over it been over between us though we are gans, he is the one u need i guess, i dunnoe how to explain but the pain inside me is nvr gonna heal, my wound my pain my sorrow is somethign u can never see or heal it. i lost ur healing touch but i think i am used to it already becos i am alway been treated lydis. LAST LONG WITH HIM ~
Labels: i am having a grass made ring but i dunnoe should i gif it to who. u make me lose my mind Siigniing off takecare The One Been Unl0ved all the while ForSaken
His goodbye @ [ 1:33 AM ]
Monday, February 9, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
剩下我們坐在岸邊 看著她越走越遠 白色星星 迎著海面 沙灘好遠 而他的心 去了哪裡 我們都無能為力 是誰的手 能牽他回來 DOES SHE KNOW? DONT THINK SO 愛上了同一個遺憾 恍然明白那時候為何要 對彼此為難 TELL ME SHE KNOWS I DONT THINK SO 我們都不屬於她的愛 不能重來的傷害 我們都學會了釋懷 兩個朋友 一個最愛 不可能有的未來 只是結局 卻讓我們 如此意外 YEAH~ 她的決定 終於坦白 開了玩笑的安排 怪 誰的錯 我們都失敗 DOES SHE KNOW? DONT THINK SO 愛上了同一個遺憾 恍然明白那時候 為何要 對彼此為難 TELL ME SHE KNOWS I DONT THINK SO 我們都不屬於她的愛 不能重來的傷害 而我們學會了釋懷
对昨天你跟他给我的东西，我真的铁近谷底。没有办法不伤心。 为了你，我做了好多傻事。你知道不知道也好，我只想让你知道我真得很爱你。你已慢慢离开，我也没话讲了。 你不属于我，我们也只是陌生人而已。 我只能默默地承受着爱着你的悲痛。我会流泪和放弃你是因为我真得太爱你。 labels: i dunnoe how its was for me to go through this hardship again T_T IT NEVER MEANT TO BE FOR US, IT NEVER WAS AND NEVER WILL ! Lost FOrever, Thank for once giving me false hope till 14 feb.
Siigniing off Takecare Going through heartaches again and again the one and Truly 没人爱 ForSaken~
His goodbye @ [ 8:48 PM ]
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
A big NEWS to celebrate. today is my birthday, it past 12 and i officially 17 LOL ! a happy and yet at same time, sad-ded birthday to me, cos my wish did not come true. ppl wish and hope for me that it will, but i guess and i know it will nvr come true ~ thank to those who console me i appreciated it but, wat i want most, is nvr coming to me. we are just passerby. let hope i can get wat i wish on 14 feb cos that day i will be waiting for an reply. that day i gonna make it memorable if i can and got the permission to. Let hope. anyway happy birthday to myself ~ i love my close 17 <33 Early birthday wishes to : jamie nuren (which is tmr) day after mine darren/valentine (val day)
Labels: i be waiiting for u <3>
Siigniing off TakeCare All Alone on Bdae / Val s' Day Every yr ForSaken
His goodbye @ [ 9:15 AM ]
Friday, February 6, 2009
Friday, February 6, 2009
well, thought it was a new beginning between me and u, but its seemed it nvr happen, my legacy continued as alway, been the one been left behind, been the one and truly forsaken ! nvr had been in this way in months and yrs, now u destroy everything haiix, i guess it nvr meant to be, it only meant to be me being left alone. i guess that might be the best for u but not me. hope u and him can alway be tgt. i bless u. loving u = not having u but if can have both it will be great. no matter awt i do, it nvr seemed enough for u, it just seemed, a sentence from him, so, i bwg ~ Doing fooolish thing all along but i guess u did not even know. the fact of my wish this yr was to spent my bdae with u but i guess it nvr gonna happen. u already "belong" to him. he owns u now and not me. there is like nth i can say anymore. just be foolish and stupid to believe in love again. i was nvr supposed to be born and live on this place, it nvr meant for me and it will NVR ! + it time is running out, dun wish to just dragged on, let time move and pass by me, and when my time come, forget about me, help me leave behind some, reasons to be missed. hope u would keep me in ur memories but i doubt so. i nvr was and nvr will be apart of u but a part from u. this ending is just the way it was for me when i was born. The 1 And Truly ForSaken~ i am just 1 who is mei ren yao/ai disowned/ forsaked/ thrown away after used/ or simply a Toy for ppl to toy around my feelings and fool around, pushes around when they are in anger. pass me to other after finish using me.Never Was i Treasure Nor Love by anyone. If u are reading this, i know wat u gonna say but, it aint gonna encourage me to move on, becos I Had LOST my wills and everything that is worth fighting on and for in my life. u gave me up, and now, my turn to give myself up practically its the same. Guess i will be alone for this year again and it nvr changes be it my bdae, valentine day or een other normall days. IT GONE AND IT NEVER WILL COME.
Label: cried for u, slit for u, even tried stopping u from more hurts but I WAS THE ONE HURTED IN THE END. Siigniing off Takecare The One Beeen Shattered and Tornapart ForSaken~
His goodbye @ [ 10:43 AM ]
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
thought it would be a better after every day, but saw ur msn nick. i really broke down. seeing the fact u went away from me further and further, i cant accept it. be it wat happen in the past i dun care or mind le, right now, u belong to my future but end up? haiix, dun think i am worthy that y u some sort choosen another guy. Haiix ! be the fact we were so close but yet distances away. nvr thought the outcome will be it this way. Hope u were feeling better from ur illness, take care? enjoy urself while u can, but i cant enjoy any much longer cos i lost my everything ~ How can it be easy to forget you when I think about you all the time? I never know how I miss you when I never had you, you were never mine I move on, but I can't go on without you Said I try, don't know why, what to do without you Can't move on, can't move on I guess u Nvr Meant TO BE MINE ~ Labels: U meant everything to me but how can u just leave me this way ~ Siigniing off takecare Broken / shattered totally, nvr can it be mended back ever again ~ ForSaken~
His goodbye @ [ 7:49 AM ]
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
After wat we chat last night, i began to feel it from u, hope its a new beginning but i guess that nvr gonna be real ever. u shattered it straight infront of me.i have nth to say le. i dun know why am i ended up this way. haiix shall get used to it barh. i know u had ur own life to live so take care barh. i really lost everything i wanted in my future. my future is bleak. forget it ! it come and go and it alway been lydat. WHY AM I ALWAY GETTING HURT ! HATE IT BUT HAVE NO CHOICE. last thing to say i really love u, if u choose that way and u are happy, i shall not interfere in ur lives anymore. wat i promised to u, i will still do but to certain extent only. i guess u need him more than me. Take care Labels: crying over something that nvr seemed mine ~ T_T haiix siigniing off takecare the one with shattered heart S/2 ForSaken~
His goodbye @ [ 10:17 PM ]
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
well, finally post something barh. recently found my airen already YEAH ! <33>well, airen u meant alot to me that y i did foolish things for u. wat done cant be undone but i believe it worth it becos u ARE THE ONE I LOVE and airen like i told u, it take 2 hand to clap, so u need the other half to give in and compromise ur shortcomings so both can last in a relationship. stop saying urself bad and see urself like a sinner, every1 make mistakes, so dun worry about that. every deserve a second chance. so do u, and wat i promise u i meant it. staying faithful to u and i love die u ! i say no matter wat u become or wat illness u have, i will alway be there foru, becos i love u.AIREN I HOPE U WILL GET WELL SOON. <33>LOVE DIE U, AI SI NI ~ no one else is better out there than u becos u are my one. Dun leave me k? <33 To: -Rachel and -Kouji hope u guy can patch successful tmr ~ and last long, from forsaken deepest blessing ~ siigniing off takecare the one been left behind ForSaken~
His goodbye @ [ 11:26 PM ]
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